Thursday, September 13, 2007

Day One

I woke up this morning and had BOTH cups of coffee without a cigarette. Shortly after Rich left for work I broke down and had a half a cigarette. Then I threw Livvie in the Jeep and we drove to Target where I purchased The Patch and a giant bag of DumDum lollypops. It is SO much easier to try to quit smoking during Halloween candy season.

When we got back out to the parking lot I opened a patch and put it on my arm. It promptly fell off. I lifted my shirt and put it on my stomach, above my waistband, instead. I hadn't even gotten a mile away from the store when the damn thing started to itch and burn like fire ants. I made it home without tearing myself apart.

Came inside and opened the DumDums, and they're somewhat gross. Instead of normal DumDums they have a chewy center which in some of them has the consistency of gum, and in others Tootsie Rolls. Not happy with DumDum purchase. Patch promptly fell off again. Not happy with patch.

Moved patch a couple of inches and waited. Opened and closed a baby barrette repeatedly to give my hands something to do. Ate FOUR DumDums. Paced the house. Walked in and out of the house. Barraged Rich with email to give myself something to do.

Patch peeled up a little but has not fallen off again.

Ate a 5th DumDum.

And it's only 10:47.

EDIT: Patch just fell off again.

4 comments:

Who am I? said...

hang in there, bebe. I'll be here if you want to chat...

Cyn said...

What about that gum stuff? Is that any good? Would give your mouth something to do plus the nicotine dose. Or you can take up heroin. That would take your mind off of cigarettes.

jennyquarx said...

I put the patch on my arm and it's not falling off, even if I bathe with it. I'm here all day if you need to talk, every day, dude. I'm right there with you. Hang in there, you can do it!!!

Anonymous said...

Fucking patch!

Honestly, they didn't DO IT for me. It's not the nicotine, it's the "ritual of smoking". Although I didn't get the mood swings I still became She Bitch From HELL--complete with flaming hair, forked tongue and the uncontrollable desire to rip the heads off of innocent people and shit down their necks.

Try Tootsie Pops and let me know...my quit date is getting closer...

*shudder*

Kimber