I spent agonizing moments thinking, "how did it come to this?" but I think I really know. And as much as it sucks, as unfair as that is, I can understand it.
I think even a year ago you would have waited to hear my side of things before acting.
I think we both know what happened to change that.
And that's ok too. Although my willingness to trust has just had a pan of boiling water poured over it, I do think I understand what happened.
All I ever wanted for you was exactly what you want most. If that ever comes to pass I'm sure I'll hear it through the grapevine. And that will be one of the happiest days of my life.
At first I thought that all of the emotions I'd invested over the past three years since we "met" were wasted. But I know that's not true. Your influence has shaded my life. There are parts of you I will always carry with me. I thought I missed you terribly over the past several months. That's been nothing compared to how bad it will be going forward.
I'm not going to say I'll get over it, because I won't. I will try to put it in the past and learn from it.
So please take care of yourself and keep working toward your goal.
I do still love you.