Monday, June 23, 2008

Whew

I picked up my Abilify today. Just to let you all know. I was so grateful to have it that I took it in the car with an old bottle of water I found behind the front seat. Yuck. Oh well. At least it's in my system now. I'm not sure what the half life of it is, and I probably would be fine, but better safe than sorry you know?

Let me tell you how I've been, and what this drug does for me.

I can feel the teases of hypomania in the front of my brain. It's like a tickling sensation that makes me realize that something is up. Abilify will usually keep me from tipping over the edge. Even though I can feel the tickle, that's where it usually stops. If the Abilify fails to stop it I have the Seroquel for emergencies. That's what I took yesterday. It did help.

Now, I need to talk about the Lamictal. Lamictal is for Bipolar depression, which isn't like standard depression. There's no low level sadness. If you hit Bipolar depression you're in a black well of despair that you have no way to crawl out of. Or so it seems. In effect, you basically feel like your life is over. It truly sucks. The Lamictal is a mood stabilizer that keeps you from hitting that low. And for me at least, it works. I haven't had a depressive incident since I started the therapeutic dose of Lamictal over a year ago. 

I'm eternally grateful for my meds. They allow me to live like a normal person for the most part. That isn't to say that I don't feel happy or sad sometimes, but they're normal levels of both. I think I would have been dead by now if I hadn't seen the doctor a year ago, and I'm not exaggerating. It would have been awful.

On a lighter note, I did manage to get a photo of Livvie this morning. You remember her, the reason I actually take my meds? Anyway, here it is:


5 comments:

Nina said...

Oh my. She is your Mini-me.

Oh and yay for meds.

Dagny said...

Lurve her!!!

May I borrow? ;)

And that brain tickle...ugh. That really makes me think I need to actually see someone and be honest one day...LOL.

But not today. ;)

Annie said...

She is so cute :-). Happy you got your meds...

LizB said...

What an irresistible smile! Glad you got your meds.

Cyn said...

Cute pic! Meds are great when they work. Anything that fights despair is alright with me.