Post #2: Update

Where should I start? Should I start with the fact that today's visit cost me $175 because I have a $500 deductible? Or should I start with the fact that after I got home I once again locked myself out of the house?

Oh, why don't we start with the drive in?

It took me 30 minutes to get there. I was freaking out the entire time due to rush hour traffic and people weaving in and out of lanes. I got there at 9:00 for what I thought was a 9:15 appointment. Nope. 9:45. So what did I do with my 45 minutes? I talked to the insurance company to get a pre-auth for these appointments since I had tried previously and no one had ever called me back. I found out I had a $500 deductible. And I watched Livvie create utter destruction in the waiting area. 

I got back into the office with #2 at 9:45, and it turned out to be an assessment/diagnostic visit. She spent 45 minutes asking me questions and writing the answers down on worksheets. Livvie behaved the entire time we were in there, so thank the gods for that. At the end of the visit I asked how much this was going to cost, and she said the first visit is $175 and follow ups are $100. And I have to go back in 2 weeks. How I'm going to pull the money out of my ass again I have no idea.

Livvie freaked out uncontrollably as we were leaving, and as I had to use the ladies I took her in there with me. She banged on the door and screamed the entire time we were in there. It was lovely. I got her out to the car and she was fine immediately. Go figure.

For the first time ever I was just as anxious driving home as I am usually going somewhere. I have no idea why that happened other than the fact that I had to drive quite a distance and anything could happen in 30 minutes. I had planned on stopping by the pharmacy on the way home, but due to my ridiculous outlay of cash this morning and the fact that I have a $68 visit with #1 tomorrow I don't have the funds. So I am out, O-U-T, of Abilify. This should be interesting.

I got home and put Livvie in the living room to go outside and smoke. I closed the door behind me. This time it didn't even occur to me that I had never unlocked the door. I put out my cigarette, turned to open the door, and nothing. I ended up having to drag a cooler under the kitchen window, jimmy the window up, and climb in. I ended up bleeding and with bruised thighs. I was PISSED. At myself, at this day, at being broke, at everything.

So yeah, this is my update for today. I'm sorry if it was a bummer. I'll try to be more entertaining tomorrow. Have a great Monday, and an even better St Patrick's Day everyone.