Friday, February 29, 2008
Wish Me Luck
I was going to leave this post the screen shot of my calendar, but then something happened this morning that changed my mind.
First of all I woke up and got Livvie, changed her, then went to make coffee. About a third of the way through making the coffee I thought, "Oh Fuck. Today is the first." Uh huh. Slyly I opened the door to look at the window sill on our deck, the one where we keep the smokes. Gone. One full pack and 2 partial packs were gone. My heart hit my chest like a ball doing ninety and I wanted to cry. I almost did.
My heart is still racing with panic.
I know they're not gone permanently. I know he just hid them. This is what makes it harder you see. Now that I KNOW that they're somewhere in the house it will make if far easier to think, "Oh just one. What's one gonna hurt?" etc...
So yeah, wish me luck. I'm already shaking and pacing, and that's just from the very IDEA of the whole thing.